Saturday, November 29, 2014

Funny thing about giving thanks

We all count our blessings (or pretend to) at least once a year... and the next day I am angry. Why? Because people post the most ignorant things.

 "Oh my turkey was dry!" or "That damn mother-in-law.". But when the table is one seat open, because she's died next year will you regret that post?

How about when the plant closes and you have no money for food? Will the turkey taste better in remembering?

On my Thanksgiving, I realized at 4 in the morning that I had forgotten my meds. As a result my darling, love of a husband had to drive me all the way home (1 hour) and drive himself back. I spent Thanksgiving  between the bed and the bathroom and my dinner was a doughnut. So... did I have a crappy Thanksgiving? NO! Because, despite the quality I had one. Many people didn't.

We have troops, that might never see another Thanksgiving. We have homeless freezing to death in the streets, who won't reach Christmas. We have loved ones who will or have passed. That is why when I say thanks, I give thanks for what I don't have. Like so: (and yes I do this daily)

I'm thankful that I don't have:
a terminal illness
to live in a crate
physical abuse
financial abuse
sexual abuse
emotional abuse
a dying child
an ill loved one
a son who won't come home
to worry every day that my husband will get shot on the job
psychotic breaks
chronic mental illness
to live with people who hate me
an extreme case of cognitive disorder
a severe learning disability of any kind
developmental retardation in any form
a deteriorating job
drunkenness or being drugged
to live in a war zone
to have grown-up in a war zone
in adequate crops or absence of irrigation.

I could go on all day. Truth of the matter is that for some this is what they have everyday. Some of us will never have more. I think that people who are truly grateful pay forward what little they have. Someday that could be me. And so in short I am grateful for what I ain't got. I further pray that we all triumph... together!

That's my side of it,

Saturday, November 22, 2014

new intern!!

Cheshire Grin would like to welcome

Charlene (Charli) Fountain
Artist since I could find anything to leave a mark on a blank canvas. I strive to become an Illustrator and inspire others to dream. We have our universe among the stars and your mind has its own universe that is exactly as vast and as infinite. I have characters I would like you to meet and they are hoping to tell you their story. My favorite style of art is indeed the art of Japanese comics also known as Manga. I began drawing this style when I was in middle school. I found The Cheshire company and almost as if it was meant to be I was very excited to be able to find and work for a publishing company. I hope to gain experience and heighten my skill as I continue to grow as an artist and as a person.

Friday, November 21, 2014


We are open but on holidays hiatus while I learn how to take Cheshire Grin to the next level. The biggest surprises are yet to come... stay tuned!

Wednesday, November 19, 2014


Tomorrow's my birthday. But (not in lue of the other announcement to come later) I am building a marrionette, a working dragon, with moving head, wings and so on out of paper... while doing this and fretting to my sis how the camera's broken and so I can't show her... she said, "Tell me how you built it," So I explained my design. After a long talk she has me seriously considering going back to school for robotics. Hmmmm... I'm not smart, but I can see how motion works in my head, always could.

So she's going to try to teach me algebra, so I can go back. We'll see.

That's my side of it,

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

So this week

I got my sobrietu chip and went to an incredible meeting.
Cheshire Grin is having a lot of $ problems and tech problems... if they can't be fixed I will have to close. When the CPA gets back to us I'll let you know.

Here's the thing. I've been spending much time in prayer and listening to motivational type things and a bunch of students and... this just might not be the path that God wants me to stay on. I'm not quite understanding what I need to do... but its coming. Will let you know when I do.

that's my side of it,

Sunday, November 16, 2014

double dog dare

you to watch that url... it's profound!

PS announcement coming soon!

Thursday, November 13, 2014

2 shows for the price of one!

I'm a double threat tomorrow... with 2 count'em 2 topics on the radio! Don't miss Teen Sexuality and A SECOND segment on suicide.

Please listen and help us stop the stigma attached to mental illness!

If the link doesn't work please google This Needs To Be Said... it'll pop right up!

Thanks for your sympathies... I adore you guys!

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

For those who inquired

Thursday is the Rosary, Funeral and Mass areFriday. My husband's family is requesting that instead of flowers donations be made to the Cancer Society. Thank you all so much for all of your prayers and messages of support in this dark hour.

Monday, November 10, 2014


I won't be blogging much for a while. There's been a death in the family.

Saturday, November 8, 2014

We didn't win

either competition this year. It still means alot that everyone waited with us. However if this next month does not show serious sales, I'm afraid we might have to close down.
Thanks to everyone.
That's my side of it,

Thursday, November 6, 2014

I just wrote this

Icarus Strain

I was...
Once I was all...
I was exalted, respected, golden
I was...
Once upon a time...
I was triumphant
I was.

I am...
breath and passion …
dreams not yet recognized
I am...
regret and promise...
I am.

I will be...
again upon the mountain top...
this time refusing to look down...
lest I ruin the dreams of those
still climbing...
as I am.

I face...
another journey...
another obstacle...
I am...
I am that obstacle.
That roadblock...
I am.

I was...
the wings, the wind,
the voice of revolution...
I was fire and ferocity
Once upon a time,
I led,
I followed,
I was...
the creator of regret...
I was
the golden boy...
I was.

I am...
the obstruction and hindrance
I am...
the goal and the prize...
I am the path no longer walked
I am...
Two paths, one choice
no decision.
I am.

I will be...
the mediocrity I settle for...
the epic battle I choose...
win or lose...
I will be...
I will be
and soaring...
all the way to the sun.
I will be.

So sick again

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

Unedited pages from next book

It will be Whole Language Textbook for homeschooled children on various levels of learning. We have other surprises in store for you... so stay tuned!

Monday, November 3, 2014


I've not been blogging because I'm ill, hubby's ill, kid was ill and a family member is critically ill. So much to handle... his insurance is trying to cut hubby's insulin too. Plus trying to get my benefits as I need a doc ASAP. The public hospital will let you die if its not a gunshot. Also I'm afraid of that side of town. Thinking I have pneumonia again. So sick as of late. Thanks for sticking round when I'm down on my luck though! Very sweet.

In aprox 2 weeks I'll have 24 years sober!!!

That's my side of it,