Hey
guys. It's me. I was trying to paint a book cover for the second
book. It's okay but I'm going to redo it. Just not what I wanted. On
that front though I'm next in editing for the Q. I'm very excited
about it.
As
far as the book for teens, I have 2 signings scheduled, but I am
becoming increasingly ill. I don't really know what to do. I don't
want to cancel after the Half Price has been so very kind to invite
me. My health is just not improving. Nothing seems to help in the
least.
I
am sick and in pain every day. I go to a doctor and every symptom is
SM. I go to a specialist and, “Not everything that happens to you
is SM.” What am I supposed to do? I'm not a doctor so how am I
supposed to fix it? Or even ask about it in an intelligent fashion?
Okay
well I know it's insane but I actually looked it up on the web.
Look... Don't hate me because I'm logical... okay? Lol
Okay
so my skin falling off is supposedly post-menopausal. I asked a nurse
across the pond and she said that's true. Okay but I'm still in
menopause.
I
am tired of spending my existence in the restroom for half a day and
in bed for the rest. I'm tired of not being able to leave my house
because clothing tears my skin. I'm tired of eating 10 pills for
breakfast, 10 for dinner, 4 for lunch. I'm tired of not being able to
turn my head. I'm tired of trying to debate whether smoking myself to
death is a worse fate than becoming a veggie but being alive. In
short, I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.
Now
before you get on me about sitting the pity pot, I was asked to write
this blog today to raise awareness. I hope it does and soon. My
wheels on my chair are bent-up and I can't afford another!
That's
my side of it,
Angel
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