I'm spending a lot of time working now that. Alpha Wolf Publishers has given me such a huge opportunity by publishing 2 of my books, that I am trying my best to become indispensable!

I am wondering today about the school systems here. I want to approach the middle schools and high schools with my book if at all possible. I am wondering how long it takes to present something to the actual school boards here. Does one make an appointment here... and if so when. Approaching schools is much easier when you work in the schools... but that was so long ago, that I haven't any more connections.

It seems like just yesterday that I was chasing kindergartners around in break-neck high-heels, now just getting to the bathroom without help is a feat in and of itself. We probably wouldn't have purchased this house had it not been for this wheelchair not fitting through most hallways and doors. It seems only yesterday I was running beside a bicycle teaching my daughter to ride a bike. I remember walking 9 miles a day... wasn't that just yesterday? No, it was 10 years ago that this disability started eating my strength and chewing up my spinal chord. 10 years... has it been so long?

I get very angry with myself every day. When I had those abilities why was I not thankful for them? Why was I not grateful enough? In truth... I never even thought of my legs once. I figured I suppose that walking was a given. That as long as I stayed fit the boogey-man would never catch up to me. Perhaps I was trying to outrun a disease that turned out to be faster than I was. Or perhaps this disease was just waiting in the bushes ready to pounce all along but it was so well-hidden that I never thought for a moment that it would be able to truly strike. Certainly I was fit! Certainly I was active enough to outsmart the thing that put me in leg-braces when I was 4.

I was walking at 6 months and the doctors said that that was certainly all that was wrong with my legs. Specialist after specialist proclaimed it. And once I was able to properly walk... there was no keeping me down. I never stopped for rest. Perhaps somewhere inside my mind I knew that time was running out, although I highly doubt it!

I would see people in wheel-chairs and I would feel so sorry for them. After a quick “There but for the grace of God go I,” I would put them out of my mind. SO selfish, so blind. I was young and immortal! No terrible thing would ever befall me! But I was wrong and time was running out.

I don't want you to get the idea that I am all, “Woe is me,” because I'm really not. I have been blessed beyond my wildest dreams! I have a perfect house! I have an incredibly brilliant daughter. I have a gorgeous and loving husband, 2 book contracts. I am blessed to the point that if I actually tried to list them all here there wouldn't be enough room on the web!

I just want you to think for one minute...Have I been grateful for my abilities today? If the answer is “No,” then there is a simple exercise that can help. Gimmee 5. 5 things that you are thankful for today... name 5. I have shared my 5 and now it is your turn.

That's my side of it,

Angel xxoo